Good Morning everybody
Trust that you are all well and had a uneventful week. My week was not too good as I remembered my daughter Tanya who was murdered 11 years ago on the 9th November and her young and beautiful life snuffed out at the age 29 I know that many would say that it is 11 years get over it but only a parent who had lost a child would know that the pain and the loss would continue to remain. She was my only biological child and it was like a part of me that died that day as well. But in spite of my experience God has been my refuge and my strength and if it had not been for my faith and the prayers of family and friends which I thank God for I would probably have been in Falkenberg but God.
Tanya had three sons which I immediately had to take care of a five week old baby and a six and nine year old so at 55 my husband and I had to start a new family all over again.
I must confess it has not been easy but then God would never put you on a path and not give you the right shoes to walk that path. My only regret is that I cannot be a granny that has the privilege to spoil her grand children. So as children they have been deprived of that right. I have forgiven her perpetrators and have left them entirely in God's hands and pray for the salvation of their souls.
So at 65 I am called Mommy by my grandson Jude who was five weeks at his mothers death. I don't like him calling me Mommy but he insist and I have gotten use to it by now.
It has not been easy for us to rear teenage boys as the children are very different to the teens in my time and I of cause am still of the old school and have a lot of adapting to do in my mindset and also have to learn to change with the times that we are living in.
If there are anybody who have lost children do not be ashamed to grieve and do not let anybody tell you that it is time. But the secret of grieving is not to stand still and grieve but to continue to go forward and to reach out and help especially in your community and try and make a difference in the lives of others.
God Bless
3 comments:
I really like your whole story girl not only is your grandson calling you mommy you are really a good fortunate lady with lots of ambition.You are really my role model.You will win a prize for the worlds greatest mom.
We love you, and always remember you're doing a great job. You certainly have a wonderful heart n keep the good humour. These are challenging times but your family will be blessed in unexpected ways.. may your children always be grateful.
Thanks for sharing your story with us.God promise us that He will never leave us nor forsake us. He is still the same yesterday today and forever. One day when they're come to you and say,mommy I want to get married, you will see what a great job you and your husband has done rearing them in the right manner and for being their parents. I am sure they have and will always make you proud as their mom. Keep the faith . God bless
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